I Am Not Worthy of You

Jesus said to his apostles:
“Whoever loves father or mother more than me is not worthy of me,
and whoever loves son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me;
and whoever does not take up his cross
and follow after me is not worthy of me.
Whoever finds his life will lose it,
and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.
Whoever receives you receives me,
and whoever receives me receives the one who sent me.
Whoever receives a prophet because he is a prophet
will receive a prophet’s reward,
and whoever receives a righteous man
because he is a righteous man
will receive a righteous man’s reward.
And whoever gives only a cup of cold water
to one of these little ones to drink
because the little one is a disciple—
amen, I say to you, he will surely not lose his reward.”

Matthew 10:37-42

To the tune NON DIGNUS (“O Lord, I Am Not Worthy”):

I am not worthy of you,
O Son of God Most High,
so little do I love you
while seeking my own life.

To love a son or daughter,
this I know how to do,
or give a cup of water
to one who thirsts like you,

but how to love you better
than life or self or kin:
Forgive me, Lord, this failure,
this race I cannot win.

And let me still draw near you,
unworthy as I am,
through those whose love reveals you,
O Christ, the Son of Man.

And let me still receive you
in all that you have sent,
still long for and believe you
in word and sacrament.

O Christ, let me accept you
in any cross I bear.
My love is imperfection,
yet let me still draw near.

Mattia preti a mother entrusts her children to christ065948) By Mattia Preti – https://onlineonly.christies.com/s/old-master-paintings-sculpture-online/mattia-preti-taverna-1613-1699-valletta-183/156486, Public Domain, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=120834817

Unfold the Letters

The unfolding of your word gives light,
and understanding to the simple.

Psalm 119:130 (Ecumenical Grail Psalter)
You spoke, O God, and made a world
and all that dwells within:
Your voice evoked it from the void;
your joy set it aspin.
You wrote in dust that rose and heard
and smudged what you had penned.
Unfold the letters of your word:
Let there be light again.

Push back the shadows of our sight:
Once more your mercy tell
to make even our darkness bright
with light that never fails.
Teach us to read as you inscribe,
for you are writing still,
your words engraved in day and night—
and oh, the good they spell!

Then take our hands that we may trace
the letters writ in flame:
transforming sylables of grace
that burn away all shame,
the words no sorrows can erase,
nor weakness, doubt, or blame,
your love in lines of Christ's own face
and in ours, too, the same.

Candle By Arivumathi – Own work, CC BY-SA 3.0, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=24728169

Balanced Budget

Naked we came into this world,
bare debtors to the grave,
and when it's time to pay what's owed,
we go just as we came.

The dust we borrowed from the earth
scooped out a tally mark;
we pay it down into the dirt
to turn the red ink dark.

We only pay the principle—
the interest, we can't touch,
and none of us can pay in full
our promises in dust.

Still we who can't redeem our debts
demand what we are owed.
Yet in our dust, the word-made-flesh
writes out a newer note

and all our losses, all our gains,
add up, subtracting death.
Numbers grow wings and fly away,
and mercy's all that's left.

And all our columns tumble down,
our pledges are redeemed,
for Christ has settled our accounts
and burned the balance sheets.

The 1860 ledger of Upper Red Hook, NY doctor John E Losee with artemisia plant (used to aid digestion). By WindingRoad – Own work, CC BY-SA 4.0, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=59743911

The Kingdom of God

The kingdom of God is among you,
as it was in Jerusalem's streets,
when donkeys left mountains of dung there
for Jesus to wash from our feet.

For thus it was in the beginning,
and thus evermore it shall be:
He comes in the midst of our sinning,
when light's what we most need to see.

The God who made mountains and molehills,
who could have made mints and machines,
rolled us from the dust like  Marlboro,
lit us with the spark of his being.

So into the dust he came rolling
to wallow in what he had made,
and hallow the ash of our smoking,
and roll us back out of the grave.

And who'll wash his feet in our mudbath?
We can't even untie his shoes,
but, oh, we will give him a bloodbath,
and, oh, he will make us brand new.

It's into the midst of this circus,
this mess that's not fit to be seen,
he comes when we most need his mercy,
he comes, and he makes the dust clean.

Icon of Jesus Christ, last quarter of the 15 th century, in St. George church in Struga, Macedonia By Unknown author – Охридско-струшки иконописни траги од втората половина на 15 век, Public Domain, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=15822920

Psalm 121: Spokane

I lift my eyes unto the hills
whose secrets stand unknown;
below my feet, the river spills
over the jagged stone.

And what shall come from mountain height,
from summits sharp and steep?
The breaking of the mornig light
awaking me from sleep.

And what shall come from tumbled stone
the current chases on?
The icy notes flung out and flown
to fill the bright'ning dawn.

So from the heights and from the depths
your mercy comes to me:
You name, O God, my hope and help
inscribed on sky and scree.

For you built up the mountain peaks
that bite into the sky,
its beauty spread out as a feast—
and thus you feed my eye.

And you poured out the flowing stream
to water thirsty lands.
My panting soul drinks in the gleam
of mercy from your hands.

The Spokane River at Riverside State Park, Spokane, Washington By I, Murderbike, CC BY-SA 3.0, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=2232651

Sacred Heart

For the feast of the Sacred Heart:

The desert wind still stings,
dust blowing into dust,
but you have made a place of springs,
who set your heart on us.

Not for our strength or grace,
but for a love all yours,
you bring us to your resting place
where mercy ever pours.

Your shadow is our rest;
your stream undammed and free
shall rise in every pilgrim's breast—
and there your heart shall be.

And when we take our way
your heart in ours shall beat;
your voice shall be our yea or nay;
your steps shall guide our feet.

With your eyes we shall see,
your eyes that look on God:
Wheree'er we turn, there God shall be—
the world shall be your heart.

So give us this to drink:
the love that pours from you,
that we may be your living springs
and make the desert new.

Józef Mehoffer – Serce Jezusa 1930 – http://www.polswissart.pl, Public Domain, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=126863843

Psalm 90: Charlottesville

Written at a farmhouse outside Charlottsville, VA, on a Porter’s Gate retreat:

Our songs drown out the buzzing of the bees,
but we will fade like grass beneath your feet.
The bees will still be singing when we're gone,
but for a moment, Lord, you have our song.

Before the mountain ridges touched the stars,
before we blossom here, O God, you are.
Our refuge and our rock through all the years,
and when we leave, you still will hold us near.

Our blindest lights outshine the fireflies,
but oh, the wonder when they meet our eyes!
Our burning days are briefer than their flare:
We pass away like breath upon the air.

O, teach us then to count our little days:
The wisdom of our hearts will teach us praise.
And though we know the night is coming on,
you fill us with your mercy in the dawn.

We wake to birdsong in the morning sun;
before the night falls, all our songs are done.
The sun will rise again upon the land;
we will be gone, and still be in your hand.

Western honey bee visiting flowers By Louise Docker – https://www.flickr.com/photos/aussiegall/6105263663, CC BY 2.0, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=16416449

Words Must Fail

For Trinity Sunday:

O God, you are; O God, you were;
O God, you are to come,
and we, who are and are no more,
proclaim and yet are mum.
Beyond the meaning of our words,
you are and ever shall,
and oh! what grace, that we are heard
where all our words must fail.

Eternal God and triune God:
Our wonder multiplies
beyond the bounds of mind and heart,
the means of ears or eyes,
for you exist beyond our sense
or metaphor's bright pale.
Oh, draw us, step by faltering step,
where all our words must fail.

Into the everlasting dance
of knowing and of known
bring us, with fumbling feet and hands,
to join you, three-in-one.
In bodies here we singly stand,
but draw us through the veil
and even we may understand
where your word never fails.

Dreifaltigkeitskreuz in Bronze auf Stein By Karbohut – Own work, CC BY-SA 4.0, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=120823805

Icons

O God, you wrote your icons
in Eden's virgin dust,
prepared us for the bridegroom,
and breathed your life in us.
You made the dirt your mirror,
reflecting heav'n above,
and shaped your image-bearers
in echo of your love.

Long since we have left Eden,
the ground that bears us cursed,
dust wounded and dust weeping,
but printed with your words.
We failed to read the message
when it was written new;
how can we see your image
who can no more see you?

And so you sent the bridegroom
to find his wand'ring brides
and to reveal your icons
to weak and weary eyes.
Though Eden lies behind us,
turn us to face true east,
to follow where you guide us—
O, call us to your feast!

Христос и грешница. Фреска Софийский собор в Вологде By Дмитрий Плеханов (1642 — 1710) – А. Рыбаков. Художественные памятники Вологды, Public Domain, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=7978622

Visitation

When Elizabeth heard Mary’s greeting,
the infant leaped in her womb,
and Elizabeth, filled with the Holy Spirit,
cried out in a loud voice and said,
“Most blessed are you among women,
and blessed is the fruit of your womb.
And how does this happen to me,
that the mother of my Lord should come to me?
For at the moment the sound of your greeting reached my ears,
the infant in my womb leaped for joy.
Blessed are you who believed
that what was spoken to you by the Lord
would be fulfilled.”

Luke 1:39-56
Within me, yet not of me,
in answer to your voice:
the sudden wave that floods me,
the flutters of his joy.

The child of such long promise
sees more than I can see—
What light shines in his darkness,
now you have come to me?

And silently he shouts it;
what words can barely form
his ecstasy announces:
The coming of the Lord!

Who am I to receive him,
unseen though he appears?
Blest are you who believed it,
the word that touched your ears!

For here within your body
salvation lies in wait,
and when he parts those waters,
new life shall run in spate!

Across the hills you bear him,
how hiddenly, the Christ,
and I, who have been barren,
am bearer of delight!

Master of the Geneva Latini – Book of Hours (Use of Rouen)- fol. 39r, The Visitation – 1952.227.39.a – Cleveland Museum of Art (cropped) By Master of the Rouen Echevinage – https://clevelandart.org/art/1952.227.39.a, CC0, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=77867996