This is the final moment of “before,” the last day of our unheard crying out. Tomorrow comes what's never come before: The first drop ending eras of our drought.
Unseen, as minuscule as all our hope: one drop, but it's enough to break the light and show the wonders hidden from our scope since first we hid ourselves from heaven's sight.
One drop tomorrow, presaging a flood— and all our fears of drowning in that day are washed of all the centuries of mud that clogged our wheels—it opens up a way.
Our vision of the world breaks all apart in colors that were always buried there when heaven beats within a human heart. You come, O Christ, to lay all heaven bare.
Today, though, all the sky is merely blue, unclouded, empty, gaping, barren, dry. Tomorrow, Lord, when Mary welcomes you, your wonders will begin to fill our sky.
Jesus took Peter, John, and James and went up the mountain to pray. While he was praying his face changed in appearance and his clothing became dazzling white. And behold, two men were conversing with him, Moses and Elijah, who appeared in glory and spoke of his exodus that he was going to accomplish in Jerusalem. Peter and his companions had been overcome by sleep, but becoming fully awake, they saw his glory and the two men standing with him. —Luke 9:28b-36
I've walked the valley, and I've climbed the mountain to chase the hints and glimpses of your face, and still do I believe I'll see your bounty here in this place.
But it's a hard road, this land of the living, and I a stone that rolls along its tracks— compassionate as stone and as forgiving until it cracks.
I break and seek you still through all my days here— how rarely is my way lit by a spark! Where is the light that guides me toward salvation through all the dark?
But darkness is not dark to you—I glimpse it in moments when I cannot trust my sense, that as I wait for night to be transfigured it's burning yet;
that every inch of road runs over Tabor; that every step I take is in the light that you have hidden in a human savior, the heart of Christ.
And my own heart, world-weary and unfeeling, will melt into your glory when it's shown. The light is always here: Though I can't see it, it brings me home.
ALG169046 The Transfiguration, 1594-95 (oil on canvas) by Carracci, Lodovico (1555-1619)
oil on canvas
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Pinacoteca Nazionale, Bologna, Italy
Alinari
Italian, out of copyright
This world keeps rearranging my every push and pull, when I would hold unchanging and imperturbable: Lord, let me keep my rituals, though all else goes to hell. If we have drink and victuals, all manner shall be well.
See, Saturday's for donuts, whatever comes to pass, and has been so since Covid closed meet-ups and the Mass, since I could put my mask on, grab coffee piping hot, and drink it in the bright sun out in the parking lot.
I still go every weekend, as regular as clocks: Through wind and rain and heatwave I make my exodus, and even if it's snowing I get one spinach tart and one old-fashioned donut, as manna for my heart.
Take not from me, O Father, this ordinary rite, this gift of flour and water and moment of delight. Though this be nothing holy, no heav'nly Eucharist, it's earthly comfort wholly— O, bless it, God, for this.
We adore you, O Christ, and we bless you, because by your holy cross, you have redeemed the world.
“Behold the man!” So Pilate cries; we turn and lift our jaded eyes to look upon our king now crowned with thorn, condemned to die. We hail him, shouting, “Crucify the maker of all things!
“No king but Caesar will we have, no heaven but an open grave. Barabbas shall go free!” The ancient yoke we have cast off: Christ bows his head to show his love. The Pasch he shall complete.
He goes as prophets had foretold, the road before him from of old. He goes, the Great Amen. And we, the lambs his arm enfolds, the people that his might upholds, will wash our hands again.
Holy God, Holy Mighty One, Holy Immortal One, have mercy on us.
This is a poem I wrote and published here last year, the first of a whole series on the traditional Catholic Stations of the Cross. You can buy a download of the whole series, including files for easy printing or reading on your e-reader, for $5 here: https://bluemay.gumroad.com/l/WtWSotC
You speak, Lord, and I listen, words written on my heart; my soul, though, does not quicken, and still my heart is hard. I hear, but I am deaf yet; am blinded, but I see. I am closed off from heaven: Ephphatha! say to me.
How can my eyes be opened to see what you reveal? My stone heart mst be broken so that I may be healed. How can I hear the whisper as heaven's door swings free? As you were pierced for sinners, Ephphatha! say to me.
For you yourself were opened, and you wept floods of tears— so each of us is broken, and I myself am pierced. As you have suffered with me, my sufferings redeem. Let heaven open in me: Ephphatha! say to me.
Filled with the Holy Spirit, Jesus returned from the Jordan and was led by the Spirit into the desert for forty days, to be tempted by the devil. —Luke 4:1-13
You were led into the desert— it's been waiting since your birth— to be tempted and be tested as are all who walk the earth, to take up the weight we bear here and to suffer—for you can— all the shocks that flesh is heir to, Son of David, Son of Man.
You were led into temptation; you were purified by fire. Still the rocks are as you made them though you hunger and desire. Teach us how to hunger with you for a feast beyond our thought: Bread that you alone can give us, Son of Heaven, Son of God.
You were led atop the Temple, shown the world beneath your feet, but you would not serve the tempter and you chose your own defeat. You will die like one forsaken; you will sink into the dust. Wept and shrouded, you'll be laid out, son of Mary, one of us.
You were led into the desert; you were led to Calvary, so you lead us onward, Shepherd, to the pastures of your peace. Let us follow through the wasteland, through temptation let us cling 'til you bring us to your graced land, sons and daughters of the king.
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You spoke, O God, and all was made; the evening came, and then the day, and someday all will be made new— a day that no one knows but you.
You drew the vapor off the land and oceans gathered in your hand. You shut within its doors the sea, and with a word you set it free.
The stormcouds thundered back again: You looked upon the works of men and sent the raging of the flood to wash the stones we'd stained with blood.
But in your day all floods recede and sunlight touches soil and seed. The shattered earth will yield once once; the vintage of your love will pour.
'Til then, your altars deep are drowned, and deep the sacrifice must sound. So shall the deluge wash away the sin that stains our hands today.
Let this flood reach our inmost parts with tears to baptize wayward hearts. Like the earth, let us be whole again; like the earth, to yield your harvest then.
Noah’s Ark (1846), by the American folk painter Edward Hicks 1780 – 1849 (1780 – 1849) – Artist/Maker (American)Born in Langhorne, Pennsylvania, United States. Died in Newtown, Pennsylvania, United States.Details on Google Art Project – aQFz9qNv8QS26Q at Google Cultural Institute maximum zoom level, Public Domain, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=21886421
Jesus said to his disciples: “Take care not to perform righteous deeds in order that people may see them; otherwise, you will have no recompense from your heavenly Father. When you give alms, do not blow a trumpet before you, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and in the streets to win the praise of others. Amen, I say to you, they have received their reward. But when you give alms, do not let your left hand know what your right is doing, so that your almsgiving may be secret. And your Father who sees in secret will repay you. —Matthew 6:1-6
If we have worked in darkness and labored through the night, how shall we taste the harvest in your unending light?
We fear the dark's obscurance of all our works and ways. O God, give us endurance and hope to see the day!
Look down on all that's hidden and read the words we hide: May all our acts live in you, where even night is bright.
And in our darkest places, our inmost, secret parts help us to sing your praises as you look on our hearts.
Then may we give in secret: Our good work need not show for surely you will see it— though you alone may know.
And when you set your table where all shall have their due, Lord, make for us a place there, that we may feast in you.
When this which is corruptible clothes itself with incorruptibility and this which is mortal clothes itself with immortality, then the word that is written shall come about: Death is swallowed up in victory. Where, O death, is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting? —I Corinthians 15:54-58
I will wear out like a garment, growing tattered, getting torn. Though, my God, you spun and carded, wove my threads ere I was born, yet your work shall come unravelled, picked apart by careless hands, stained by everywhere I've travelled as I seek the promised land.
Take and wash me, smudged and spotted, in your everflowing stream. When you draw me from the water, then at last I will be clean. But you will not patch these tatters when this cloak is all worn through, piecing fullness where I'm ragged— You will weave my threads anew.
I am meager; I am mortal, quickly worn out in the strife. Clothe me then in what's immortal, and I'll enter into life. Death is swallowed up in vict'ry, in the shroud of Christ the Son. I am sewn into your myst'ry, in the seamless life you've spun.
Kate Bluett 
