Abraham’s Song

Then God said:
“Take your son Isaac, your only one, whom you love,
and go to the land of Moriah.
There you shall offer him up as a holocaust
on a height that I will point out to you.”

Genesis 22
What do I have that God has not provided?
What can I give that was not God's before?
What God demands is yet of his supplying:
I give it back, and so I praise the Lord.
And when you say that I must give you Isaac,
my holocaust was ever, always yours.

It is my heart I lay upon the altar;
it is my soul forwhich I hone the knife.
Above all else, myself I'd gladly offer.
Take me, O God: Make me the sacrifice.
I know you hear, so often as I call you;
hear me again, and spare my Isaac's life.

And yet I know—I know as none knows better—
that God who sees is not blind to the past.
I know too well that you will have your vengeance.
As Sodom fell, so I must fall at last.
Why will you wreak your justice on the sinless?
Spare him, O God, and let my die be cast!

For all the times that I have sinned against you
this is my pay—how could I turn again?
And if I turned, it still would not prevent you
from what you will. O God, my God, relent!
Have mercy, Lord. Give way, and we will bless you,
my son and I. Ask not that he be spent!

What is this sound, this strange, arresting whisper?
What is this hope that rises in my soul?
Has mercy come to say I am forgiven?
What is this light my weeping eyes behold?
O Isaac, see: a ram within the thicket.
So we are saved! So we shall be made whole.

Adi Holzer Werksverzeichnis 835 Abrahams Opfer By Adi Holzer, Attribution, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=16114440

Abraham

God put Abraham to the test.
He called to him, “Abraham!”
“Here I am,” he replied.
Then God said: “Take your son Isaac, your only one, whom you love,
and go to the land of Moriah.
There you shall offer him up as a burnt offering
on a height that I will point out to you.”
Early the next morning Abraham saddled his donkey,
took with him his son Isaac, and two of his servants as well,
and with the wood that he had cut for the burnt offering,
set out for the place of which God had told him.

Genesis 22:1b-19
“And will you take the righteous with the wicked?”
You had the courage, then, to question God.
Before you see the ram caught in the thicket,
you climb the mountain and you break your heart.

You lay your only son upon the altar
without a word of protest for his sake,
prepare yourself your very soul to offer,
and in your hand the sharpened knife you take.

Where is the courage that could fight for Sodom?
Where is the strength that dared a Pharaoh's wrath,
the tears that fell for Hagar and your lost son?
How has the hope within you turned to ash?

Is it the test itself that makes you falter,
to hear God ask you for the death of love?
Or do you lay your faith upon the altar,
let heaven witness as you call its bluff?

Does even God look down this day in horror
to see the rotten harvest of despair,
and does he give you back again your courage
to wrestle with him in the depths of prayer?

Then pray for me, O Abraham, in my doubt,
when I must bear the fire and the knife,
that I may cling, through all the waves I ride out,
to love as surely as I cling to life.

עקדת יצחק (1947) מאת משה קסטל. צבע על זכוכית, 46×45 ס”מ. מוזיאון קסטל. By Moshe Castel – Taken by Talmor Yair – שיחה), CC BY-SA 3.0, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=17939939

The Matriarchs

The ancestresses of Jesus don’t get much notice in the Jesse Trees I’ve seen. But you can’t have Isaac without Sarah, or Jacob without Rebecca. You cannot have salvation history without women. So here are some of them, waiting for the Lord. Some from the Old Testament:

  All: Our children, lost or sent away
to soothe a human wrath,
are waiting. Where? We cannot say,
but we would take that path
to where it meets the farthest day.
Our lives of aftermath:
let them rewind, oh Lord, we pray
with all the strength we have.

Sarah: Let me find Isaac, hands unbound,
and Hagar left alone.
The sleepless nights in her I found--
but you made me atone:
my only child with tinder crowned,
laid on the altar stone,
altered by time on holy ground--
God, give me back my own!

Rebecca: My darling Jacob set away;
my Esau left as lord,
and all the while I had to pay
for my part in the fraud.
I pulled the strings and had my way
and lost what I had sought:
my loves. And now I seek the day
we are together brought.

Leah: By husband hated, by sons loved,
I reveled in the pain
my sister steeped in, yet I grieved
with every son I gained.
I was by father's sin betrothed;
my husband's rage, my shame.
My sons for my sake killers proved:
Oh, God, remove our blame!

Rachel: The shepherd of the spotted flock
I wed in my delight,
but maculate I found in shock
the actors in our plight.
My sister, husband, and--my God--
myself: all, in my sight,
by grief and sin both marred and marked.
Oh, please, Lord, set us right!

All: Our children burdened by our sin,
our lineage disgraced:
At nightfall, weeping entered in,
and tears still stain our face.
How long, oh Lord? Look down again;
raise up what we've abased.
Give joy for all our days of pain;
for all our faults, give grace.

And here are some from the New Testament: Mary and Martha After Sending For Jesus

  Mary: Martha, he'll come.
Martha: He must have heard by now,
unless the message went astray. It could.
We could send more; let's do that anyhow,
and know, at least, that we did all we should.
But still--
Mary: He'll come. You'll see.
Martha: I said, I know.
But if he doesn't, what will we do then?
If Lazarus--if he--if he should go--
But no. He won't. Jesus will come by then.
He will. Won't he?
Mary: He'll come.
Martha: I know. I know!
But why isn't our friend already here?
We sent that message to him days ago!
We've prayed and prayed, and he seems not to hear.
Where is he?
Mary: When his time has come, he'll come.
And we will greet him, even from the tomb.
By Солнцев Ф. – http://www.thg.ru/education/drevnosti_rossijskogo_gosudarstva/drevnosti_rossijskogo_gosudarstva_screenshots_5_1.html, Public Domain, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=30408178

Isaac, On His Pyre

  The wood I carried crosswise on my back;
my father bore the fire and bore the knife,
but, "God will give the sacrifice we lack,"
he says, and binds my hands to take my life.
Oh, God, what will you give? I ask the sky,
the trees, the mountain, and the dancing flame.
A son, a son, as one they all reply,
but none of them is whispering my name.
What son, oh Lord? and roaring fills my ears--
not roaring, no, but bleating misery.
The knife hangs still, and I see (blurred by tears)
a ram's majestic horns caught in the tree.
I do not understand what I saw then,
but still I pray to see it once again.
By Caravaggio – scan, Public Domain, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=15219747

Abraham

  My children like a night of stars
are rising as I set.
I am an old man, knit of scars;
they are untested yet,
but he who made both light and dark
made, too, their length and breadth.
He will not douse the catching spark
in silence and in death.

No matter how the long night falls
or what new storms may rise,
what sins may hold my sons in thrall,
what nations them despise,
they shall yet shine, both great and small,
shall yet hang in the skies.
Though cloud and dust obscure them all,
still shall they draw my eyes.

And after nightfall comes the dawn,
comes up the burning day
to shine where only night was known
and drive the shade away.
Then all the stars that ever shone
will shine within his rays.
And I will rise with them as one.
Rise swiftly, son, I pray!
By Julius Schnorr von Carolsfeld – Der Literarische Satanist, Public Domain, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=5469755

As I wrote these poems, imagining figures form long before Christ’s time longing for the Messiah, so many times I found those characters on the brink of their own deaths. We’re waiting, after all, for the coming of one whose appearance will mark the end of all things. We are waiting for our own deaths–and for what will come afterwards, whether by a second or by an aeon. We are waiting for something so far beyond ourselves–and yet so like ourselves–that death seems a prerequisite for such an unimaginable journey. So remember, thou art dust. And something wonderful is coming out of, and for, that dust.