Have I come at last to trust you?
Lord, forgive my long delay.
It’s your patience that has done this,
if I’ve found the homeward way.

Now it’s brought me to the shoreline—
What is this you have for me?
For the path I’d learned to follow
disappears into the sea.

Must I walk into its waters?
They have vanished in its roar,
all your foregone sons and daughters
crossing over to your shore.

Are they lost? Will I be lost, then?
Do you hold them even yet?
Lord, will even my poor flotsam
make its way into your net?

If the waters part before me
or the breakers overwhelm,
still you’ve made a mansion for me
on dry land or in the swells;

then I must embrace the wave, here—
turquoise, azure, midnight blue,
deep and deeper still, my savior,
as you draw me near to you.

Limosa fedoa is walking at Ocean Beach at low tide against the sun. By Brocken Inaglory – Own work, CC BY-SA 3.0, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=12079178

No sparrow falls but you have traced its arc
and marked the place where it will come to earth.
The arrow or the talons of the hawk
or winter winds lay sparrows in the dirt;
let summer linger, then, and raptors balk.
Bring down all things that would the sparrows hurt:

Break every bow, make every arrow warp
to curve its flight away from fragile wings
that fly to find some hollow in the scarp
where they can hide from javelins and slings.
Bend every sword to plow the furrows sharp
and straight to foster green and growing things.

Then we shall, as the sparrows, come to rest
where nothing keeps the corn from growing tall.
No boots shall trample fields from east to west;
no airstrikes shatter glass and topple walls;
no bombs shall shake the branches where we nest;
no gun shall fire, nor any sparrow fall.

Until that day, keep every bird that flies,
each lamb that frisks, each man that walks his way
on any road, forever in your eyes:
Do not, O Heaven, ever look away.
And if he falls, be strength for him to rise,
or on your shoulders bear him into day. Amen.

Male house sparrow in Germany By Thorsten Denhard – Own work, CC BY-SA 3.0, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=33124111

Creation groans: The aftershocks
make even mountains quake.
The earth upon its pillars rocks
and our foundations shake.

Is this the hour—or no, not yet?—
long set for your return
to count our doom, collect our debt,
and make the rivers burn?

For all the earth dissolves in fire
when you come back to us.
Tornadoes in a falcon gyre
breathe life into the dust.

But all that terrifies our hearts
you draw into yourself:
The door where everyone departs
lies buried in your flesh.

You entered earth’s futility;
you took it as your own,
born into our fragility:
our blood, our breath, our bone.

And though we are a breath—no more—
we need not fear the night.
You lead us through the open door
into your endless light.

An example of the lava arcs formed during Strombolian activity. This image is of Stromboli itself. Photo By Wolfgangbeyer, CC BY-SA 3.0, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=34243

For if the mighty deeds done in your midst had been done in Sodom,
it would have remained until this day.
But I tell you, it will be more tolerable
for the land of Sodom on the day of judgment than for you.
—Matthew 11:20-24

As man is only born of woman’s sorrow
and flourishes and withers as the grass,
he lives today who may not see tomorrow
and only knows for sure that he will pass,
so fallow fields cannot escape the harrow:
They will be torn before the seeds are cast.

Yet we are seeds as well, these wounds our homeland;
we blossom here and call the ground redeemed.
Though labor’s days are long, we say they’re worth it
if from the weeds some grains of wheat are gleaned.
Ten innocents in Sodom and Gomorrah,
and we’d have blessed their generous regime.

What of the seeds that fall and never blossom?
What of the thorns that haunt these fertile fields?
The swooping birds too soon devour the harvest
and nothing grows, no matter how we’re tilled.
What of the cold winds of an early autumn?
What of the chill that blights the hoped-for yield?

If there were but somewhere a lasting springtime,
eternal summer reaching back to fall
and filling even winter with its green time,
enlivening the dead things in the soil,
a place where even Sodom in its sweet time
before the flames would heed a different call.

There is a place outside all spinning spaces,
a moment outside moments’ forward thrust,
and there the face whose image fills all faces
has wed his son to place and moment’s dust.
This one has come, is come, will come to save us,
preserve us even after we are crushed.

Eternity outside of wind and weather,
you see our rising and our falling here;
you who have bound yourself into our tether,
can you not save the fallen we hold dear?
But as we fall, you fall with us together:
O broken as we break, be ever near!

Reach back as you are ever reaching forward.
These harrowed fields: Let them with new life swell.
Let the seeds grow for fifty peaceful souls there;
let it be words of joy your angels tell.
Let mercy come to Sodom and Gomorrah,
and harrow us forever out of hell.

One for today’s readings on Moses telling the people exactly where God’s command is, and Jesus telling the people exactly what God’s command is, and the Good Samaritan:

I took the road to Jericho:
It’s you that I was looking for.
To find my God, how far I’d go,
but fallen, I can go no more.

I sought you, Lord, upon the heights
and far across the desert ground,
now these cracked ribs can’t raise a cry;
these swollen lips cannot call out.

But what I cannot say, you’ve heard;
though no one looks at me, you do.
To you my silence is a word;
my darkness is as light to you.

Though here beside the road I lie
as dust for all to tread upon,
pour out on me the oil and wine
until I overflow with balm.

For you have never dwelt apart,
O word of God forever near:
I find you in my wounded heart,
for you were here, were always here.

I had to take a winding track
to find you in the world I know.
Now lift me up and take me back
home from the road to Jericho.

The good Samaritan, after Delacroix by Van Gogh, 1890, Public Domain. Wikimedia Commons.

I pray for peace as wars run into years.
There is a kingdom somehow drawing near
where nothing dies, not even a leaf falls
except as medicine. There are no palls
for there are never funerals, never grief.
Lord, I believe, but help my unbelief—

Are those my lips that say it, and my mouth?
Go through the motions—it’s not even doubt;
it’s nothing, empty as the words I say
and mean—and know the wind will blow away.
A moment, and the words and I are gone.
What will remain? What grace will carry on?

The terrible, the unrelenting thirst
for brother’s blood we spill as at the first—
but even this is swallowed in the vast
unfathomable peace that comes at last.
I cannot grasp it, cannot comprehend
the ocean without shoreline, without end.

It has no hunger, neither has it need;
it swallows all, and yet it does not feed.
It takes our death, and then the dead thing lives.
The Lord taketh away—but, too, he gives
who knows the roots of death, makes them his own
and lies there silent as the unmoved stone.

This silence lets me speak words that confound.
This, then, is faith: I let myself be bound
by words that go unanswered. This is hope:
That there beyond the confines of my scope
the answer lies, with him, devouring death.
When this is finished, he will give it breath.

Letipea hiidrahn (glacial erratic) in Estonia By Zosma – Own work, CC BY-SA 3.0, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=10887879

Embarrassment of nectarine and peach;
extravagance of cherry, berry, plum
all ripe at once: the summer’s sweetest feast,
as Eden was, as Eden yet to come.

Eat up, my loves; it’s later than it seems.
For every one we eat, another rots
unless we can them—jam the glut redeems—
and save some good that otherwise were lost.

Already time and microbe come for them
or storm or violence bruise the tender skin,
and then we’ve lost another summer gem.
Each one, once gone, will never come again:

No other cherry perfect like this one,
this bursting, overwhelming, nectar-sweet.
A gift, particular, and then it’s done,
not wasted but a taste of heaven’s feast.

Oh, savor it! It will not come again,
though there be other summers just as ripe.
God only knows if you will taste them then,
or if you, too, will fall to wind and time.

There is another tree: The fruit it bears
has waited since we first stole Eden’s plums.
Each peach today its firstborn sweetness shares
that holds the lost ‘til endless summer comes.

Madonna of the Strawberries, the Upper Rhenish Master, 1420–1430 By Upper Rhenish Master – https://www.kirchenblatt.ch/links/archiv/ausgabe-15/die-madonna-in-den-erdbeeren, Public Domain, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=18344595

This originally had more wording taken directly from today’s Gospel, but those phrases felt forced. I rewrote them, and now this more of a riff on today’s Gospel sending the disciples out two by two, and the first reading’s prophecy of finding our real home:

The world is full of sojourners
and pilgrims on the way:
Lord, may their break their journey here
and rest until the day.

Give us a place to shelter them—
Oh, build for us a house
to be your new Jerusalem
for all who were cast out.

For earth is full of exiles, Lord,
who seek a truer home.
May they find here their bed and board
until the morning comes.

Give us your plenty for their needs:
We are your children all.
Give us your mercy and your feast
each time a stranger calls.

For we were strangers in the land,
were lost—now found and fed,
who find our home within your hand
and manna for our bread.

And you have given us your home—
so may we give to them.
From east and west your people come:
a new Jerusalem.

The Flight of the Prisoners (1896) by James Tissot; the exile of the Jews from Canaan to Babylon – https://thejewishmuseum.org/collection/26577-the-flight-of-the-prisoners Jacques Joseph Tissot, Public Domain, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=8860276

Written while attending a seminar on grief:

Give me an altar made of air
where I can be your worshipper
and kneeling, lay my nothings there
among the gifts that never were.

For promises were broken here,
and they are breaking in me still.
The locusts couldn't eat the years
that never came to be fulfilled.

The ways my heart was turned to wax
and melted, leaving emptiness,
my breath a litany of lack
that echoes in a hollow self:

the person I can never be,
the losses without fault or blame,
the future fallen to disease,
the wanted child who never came.

Such bread can never be consumed,
the off'ring of a hollowed heart.
I lay it in your hollow wounds,
and I cry out, “My Lord and God!”

Take what can never be restored--
what was not lost cannot be saved--
take all my empty places, Lord:
Fill me as once you filled a grave. Amen.

High altar of Saint Peter’s Basilica, Rome, Photo By Ricardo André Frantz (User:Tetraktys) – http://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Interiorvaticano8.jpg, CC BY-SA 2.5, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=7272169